maybe

maybe this is it

but maybe not

probably not,

i don’t want to ryhme today, no drafts

i just want to say that maybe, just maybe

today is the day you start living

maybe, you’re the only one standing between you and your greatest self

maybe you need one little push

and maybe just maybe this is it

remember when you were two, you probably don’t

but i promise you were fine, you didn’t care, you lived and laughed through your days, you also cried.. a lot

maybe learn something from the two year old version of you,

maybe channel the kid in you and let her be

let her free

maybe just maybe for once…

start being you,

again

who cares what everyone else thinks

i believe in you

and so should you

so maybe just maybe today is your day

to be

free

and whole

war

the past year was all about going into war with my worst enemy; myself.

left every fight celebrating my loss, losing parts of me i needed to shed.

you start growing when you’re the only one noticing your battles;

celebrating every little win, leaving the battlefields brand new;

couldn’t even notice all the versions of you.

i ran out of ink; trying to journal every tiny thought, so many fleeting emotions couldn’t be fully felt.

black ink, endless paper, rewriting who i want to be, reinventing me.

not a poem

hey you, yes you

since you’re here i wanna say a few things

it’s okay if you wanna leave but don’t worry it’s not that deep

i wouldn’t share my deepest secret with a stranger after all, or maybe i will

anyways this year was the weirdest of all

and i mean i bet it was for you too

and i don’t want to sound all positive and stuff

because no

it was bad

but i’ve been thinking recently about one thing

connection

i feel as a world

we’ve never been this connected before

like we’re all alone but together

this sense of togetherness have been with me

like we’ve been through stages of 2020

together

it’s weird but like also nice

anyways i am not here to say that i am sure you know that by now

i just want to say that i am proud of you

i know you’ve been going through something else

whatever that was for you

i am sure when added to what happened to the rest of us recently

it must have been SO hard

because lol i know me too

and for that i would like to say that you are really brave for putting up with all of that

and december has just started

and i don’t believe in new month new year new me and all

but if that makes you feel better then do it

it’s always a new chance

everyday is a new chance for you to try again

to get up

or to go to sleep since it’s almost 3 am

but i mean whatever you’re doing

wherever you are

i just hope you’re doing well

and i believe you’ll do even better tomorrow

i am happy you stayed here with me

because this is way too long and maybe one person reaches this line

but even if it’s just one person

i am happy you’re here

and i wish you the best

take care,

Hussa